Will you take me as I am?


I’m at the crossroads; on the highway of a dilemma
Thinking of everything yet nothing
I’m biting my nails;  sinking in an ocean of thought
My mind is ever roaming; seeking the perfect nursery

I have a question on my heart; an answer I need
A defining answer that will determine my path 
Yet something is holding me back; I’m dragging my feet
I'm scared; I fear I may not hear the sweet tune of the answer I seek

I’m nothing; I'm no one, I have no name
I hide in the dark, I wear a mask; I shy from light
I hide behind a curtain; a veil I created; a seal to bind me
I’m shy of my reflection; I’m scared of her rejection

I'm not the man of dreams; I’m not a golden athlete in the Olympics 
Am not a knight from a noble family
Nor a gentleman with a fortune to his name
Neither am I hero; a brave warrior of infinite victories

My pile of imperfections over run the Nile; I’m an adjective for every wrong
I cheated, I lied; I lied while smiling; through the skin of my teeth I lied
I had not a shred of dignity nor an iota of self-worth
Like I pirate I took anything I wanted, I burnt bridges of trust  

But in all my short comings I still wear a smile
I laugh harder; I sing with the winds; I ride the tides; I sail the seas
Not that I’m proud of who I use to be nor have I forgotten; hell no! Don’t get me wrong
My nightmares hunt; my past bites, but I wake to your smile 

I wake to your world, a forgiving world
I wake to a world where am I’m new creation; the new fire in my heart burns
Where the shackles of my past sins bind me no more; I’m free
A world of peace, a world of love, a world of warm hugs with sparkling fragrances

I’m undeserving of your gaze; unworthy of your touch
Neither am I worthy of your love; despise me for I deserve it
I have no right to your hand; no right to your heart
I shouldn’t even call out your name

Yet I crawl to you; not as filth I used to be, nor the angel I hope to be    
I come to you as a man; as who I am; a monstrous angel 
I come with all my past shortcomings and future promises laid bare
I come with a single question; will you will take me as I am?

JayOach

Comments

  1. Unknown10 January 2016 at 20:58

    Mmmmmmm,thats awesome
    Want one abt me
    Lets see if yu ve memories of ur bff

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  2. Unknown10 January 2016 at 20:59

    Mmmmmmm,thats awesome
    Want one abt me
    Lets see if yu ve memories of ur bff

    ReplyDelete
  3. Jayoach10 January 2016 at 22:34

    Don't worry love, our memories will be in the next one

    ReplyDelete
  4. Jayoach10 January 2016 at 22:34

    Don't worry love, our memories will be in the next one

    ReplyDelete
  5. Jayoach10 January 2016 at 22:34

    Don't worry love, our memories will be in the next one

    ReplyDelete
  6. Unknown11 January 2016 at 00:50

    C'est très bon....

    ReplyDelete
  7. Hilacglobalmedia15 January 2016 at 09:13

    This I must say is a masterpiece. Would you like to be a co publisher on my blog? Irelateinitiative.blogspot.com

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Jayoach13 May 2016 at 03:55

      Thanx Emmanuel, pls send me an email and let discus ok

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  8. Eimmarh Naa Adjorkor Wilson12 May 2016 at 02:09

    Dis sooo good ......may God increase ur wisdom .

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  9. Anonymous21 May 2022 at 05:26

    Very touching
    How did the person forgive himself though , time or intent ??
    Who now gives the person a sense of worth ?? His reflection or another person
    If you would answer, id be grateful

    ReplyDelete

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